(NEWSER) – Jillian Johnson wishes a happy 5th birthday to her "sweet boy" Landon in a blog post at Fed Is Best — a post in which she publicly opens up for the first time about his death to accidental starvation at 19 days old.
"If I had given him just one bottle, he would still be alive," Johnson writes, sharing a story that she hopes will prevent another family from suffering her fate.
Yahoo Be reports that Landon was born via C-section on Feb. 25, 2012, in a "baby-friendly" hospital in which breastfeeding was highly emphasized, so much so is that a doctor would need to write a prescription in order to obtain formula. And so her 7 lb., 7 ounce baby was exclusively breastfed — constantly.
She was told her latch was good, but one lactation consultant suggested her milk production might be impaired due to a diagnosis of polycystic ovarian syndrome, and recommended some herbs.
By day 2 of life Landon nursed for nearly 14 hours; Johnson writes that she was reassured he was just cluster feeding, and she tells People that "pressure" is too light a word for the breastfeeding counsel she was given. "You felt brainwashed ... like you were a horrible person" if you turned to the bottle.
Nearly as constant as the nursing was the crying. "I had no idea that he was inconsolable because he was starving — literally," she writes. Half a day later, they were discharged, with Landon having lost 9.7% of his birth weight.
"There is nothing wrong with supplementing," she counsels new moms. It's advice she herself has taken, having breast- and bottle-fed daughters Stella, nearly 4, and Aliona, 18 months.
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